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Sunday, March 23, 2008
hoho, so i just got Teardrops on my Guitar by tailor swift and When Im gone by simple plan. hahaha teardrop's pretty emo hahaha but aww, i like! just the type of song that ill get sick of in afew days so im gonna keep listening now! anyway so blocktest hasnt been AWESOME shizz, esp when it falls on your birthday ): haha oh talking about my birthday, nth much happened other than chinese test -_- hahaha no im kidding, THANKS to everyone who remembered! special thanks to NYSB and suzzie who bought, brought and ultimately smashed the cake and the rest for celebrating in HUSHED TONES cos block tests were going on. see, blocktests again eee. hahaha i got quite alot of food! like um, coffee and a funny jap biscuit hahah just cos it said sth about LUCK on the wrapper, and a huge muffin thing from fun. hahaha i brought it home and camwhored with it HAHAHA like, camwhore with the muffin. yes, cos it was so funnily huge. cards and such from other people and a cubic pooh (?!) hahaha portia and bella. thanks! :D oh, i got pushed into the bushy place outside the classroom blocks with lotsa snails when it was raining. and i had kiwi thrown into my face. wth, credits to charlotte and rachel but i got my revenge when we pushed charlotte into another bush! hoho. sweet sweet revenge. well, some other stuff happened but haha i guess its over now. i didnt even get it, then. but ahwell, eunice's birthday today! i almost thought it was tmr. haha HAPPYBIRTHDAY! and jiale's on tuesday hahah AUNTYYYY I DIDNT FORGET (: we're going to tekka to get _____ to ________ yay! anyway i was just visiting some people's blog, and i was wondering how some people can blog about their heartfelt thoughts! like it isnt hard enough just telling stuff to someone else, and some people can post it on their blogs. im not saying anything against them, nor am i saying its a bad thing. i was just wondering how they do it. hahahaha or maybe its just me, because its hard enough talking about stuff to someone else, hard enough to not talk at all! isnt it easier? spare all the awkwardness and everyone can just be happy around the crazy, happy you. hahahaha okayokay this is bordering on being emoshizz but no worries because im not! hahaha maybe teardrop's getting into me (haha its looping on my winamp!) so for now, other than completely not getting IH and physics and chemistry at all, i am perfectly happy. and hungry. AHHHH IM ALWAYS HUNGRY! oh yeah, SRCs are over now. it was great while it lasted anyway (: i mean, i had fun. even though we lost 2 games. cept during the TK and NH finals, when NH was down and all, both teams really had attitude and everything. and i realised then that its not our skills (most of the times anyway) that brings us down but its really the attitude. i mean, NH was down by 7 and they managed to get back 4 just by relaxing and cheering your other teammates on. scream like youre crazy when your teammate makes a hit, when the ump calls a safe. or cheering your own unique, teamcheer when everyone else is down. NYSB doesnt even do our nysb cheer anymore, when we're down we're just down. and im talking about, collectively. like the whole passive attitude spreads around affecting everyone on the field. we dont cheer like crazy when we finally score, cept give a highfive and quickly go back to hoping we can get another run, somehow. and even i am guilty of it, i find myself subconsciously frowning all the time. and we hardly make any noise on the field, only after someone else tells us to, like coach or sth. everyone's too wound up and serious, and we all keep harping on our own performance, our mistakes. which is really losing the essence of what softball really is about, isnt it. takes the fun out of it. takes the teamship and everything else when winning or losing is the only thing that matters. and now i really hope everyone can snap out of it even though its not gonna be easy changing. it sucks to throw away your game, knowing perfectly well that every single one on that field has the ability, the skill. that was the one thing i took back from srcs, and i hope change can be effected by nationals. im not being a soreloser and i dont mind losing, but only when i have completely convinced myself that we lost only because our skills really arent on par with the other team, and not because of our attitude. Of course i want to win nationals but i want even more to play an awesome game against whichever school when the time comes, where the whole team is so tight and everyone can depend on everyone else for the game. When we win it'll be a glorious win, and if we lose it'll be okay because we did our best. I miss playing in a real tight team, where nth much else really mattered except softball and your teammates. But i guess some things got complicated along the way, people grew up. As much as i like laughing at charlotte about being downright kiddish, sometimes i dont quite fancy the idea of growing up as well. Well now we've got one last shot at nationals, im gonna do my best to make everything alright again! whoa long softball rantings, haha okayokay im off to eat byebye. 7:16 PM |
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